June Musings

What I want the rest of the year to look like

We’ve officially made it to the halfway mark of the year. I’d like to say it went by fast; at first, it did. Then, last month, my depression treatment slowed time down. Instead of wishing the days by, I found myself savoring every minute.

Instead of looking at the rest of the year’s unknown possibilities with disdain, I’m open to embracing every opportunity that’ll come my way. I feel ready for the future, whatever that looks like. I haven’t given it much thought, actually.

I’m honestly having a lot of fun getting back into my hobbies. I’ve been experimenting with painting again, learning to watercolor and create abstract works. I’ve been enjoying being in this creative cave and am not quite ready to come out.

I hope I can find my way to a prosperous future within it. I don’t want to overwork the details, as I don’t believe life should be lived with a roadmap in hand. The winds are my guide; wherever they want to guide me is where I’ll go.

Right now, it’s right where I am, experimenting, playing, and figuring out this new lease on life on my own. For once, life feels like mine to shape. I don’t want it to look like a polished piece of clay but rather a jagged, natural element shaped by the flow of water, the heat of flame, and the curvature of air.

Where life will lead me, I don’t know. But for the first time, I’m excited to find out.

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And as with any good monthly musings post, I’ve made a mood board to accompany all these newfound feelings. It’s part cave, part love-letter-to-myself, and part life-from-death aesthetic.

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